Listening with my heart!

We listen with our ears every day! We hear the birds chirping, the cars driving by, the thunder in the sky, dogs barking, and even children playing. Listening with our heart is an aquired skill. Why should we even try to do this? Because it is how we will "listen to God"! He speaks to us this way. When we take the time to stay still and be patient to allow God to work through us and in us, He will speak to us through our heart. For me personally, this has been a very trying experience. I am not a patient person. I have a hard time just sitting and waiting. I am not a super busy person by any means, my mind just tends to wander when I sit and try to wait on God. And my mind does not wander on things that are pleasant by any means. I have a very active imagination and it takes me down roads I do not wish to go. This is something I struggle with on a daily basis. I have trouble falling asleep at night because of this. I try to listen to music when I am goin to sleep so I can focus my mind on good things and that helps. I have tried to have music playing while I am praying and waiting on God, but that also draws my mind away from what I am supposed to be doing! I am learning, however, that practice makes perfect. I have been able to redirect my thinking to bring myself back to waiting momentarily, but I always go back to thinking about something else. So, I guess it is back to practice, practice, practice!

My Journey Begins!

I never really thought I'd be one of the one's who would blog, but here I am. I find myself at a point in my life where I am exhausted from trying to understand why some people say one thing and act completely different. They say one thing to your face and then turn around and do something totally different. I almost feel like if it is alright for everyone else to do it, it must be alright for me to do it also. As I sit here writing this, God is touching me in a mighty way, reminding me that He is in control and I do not have to resond like others do in situations like that. He will see me through IF I LET HIM! It is totally a choice. Not a demand, but a choice. I have to choose to let God control my life in order for the relationship to work. And if I do choose to let Him do this, it has to be every aspect of my life. I can not pick and choose which parts I want God to have control over. It doesn't work like that. Never has, never will. I have to let Him have total control of everything. That has been the hard part. There are things I think I can handle, but I am slowly finding that I have been wrong for a long time. I have slowly turned things over to Him and life has become easier~notice I did not say easy, I said easier. God never said life would be easy. I do not think I would want to live in a perfect world. I would not know what to do. However, with God in control, it is pretty much as close to perfect as it can get I guess!